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Confederate Soldier’s Prayer

Some time ago it was my turn to teach my Sunday School class so I went to Barnes & Noble in search of material to present and a bit of inspiration. I found a small book that contained a lot of prayers suitable for certain themes or occasions and bought it thinking I could find some thought provoking material. When I got home I sat down to peruse my newly purchased book and turned to the index. My eyes immediately fell on the title “Confederate Soldier’s Prayer” and I knew I needed to read it first. Whether it was serendipity or providence, it was one of those magical, unexplained things that always seem to occur when you least expect it.

Why would something about a Confederate soldier hold such meaning for me? Why would a war that ended 144 years ago on Palm Sunday in 1865 at the Appomattox Court House get my attention? The simple answer is my grandfather was a Confederate soldier and fought for the South during that conflict. My father who is now 96, is one of the last living children of a Civil War veteran. For these reasons I wanted to read this prayer first. To gain insight about that period of our history.

As I read the following prayer I received much more than I expected. I received a different outlook on life and how a prayer may be answered. Many times the answer is not what we expect or ask for but an answer that gives us a much fuller, richer life if we are open to receive it. I read this often and try to be more attuned to the answers I am given. Maybe it will speak to you as it has spoken to me.

Confederate Soldier’s Prayer

I asked God for strength that I might achieve, I was made weak, that I might learn to humbly obey.

I asked God for health, that I might do greater things, I was given infirmity, that I might do better things.

I asked for riches, that I might be happy, I was given poverty, that I might be wise.

I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men, I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life, I was given life, that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I asked for – but everything I had hoped for.

Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.

I am among men, most richly blessed.

Found on the body of a Southern soldier 1861–1865

Lettin’ out the clutch, steppin’ on the gas and movin’ a bit further down the highway.

We’re Back Or So I Think

I think I have everything in it’s correct place and working properly once again. I did lose a lot of content, relatively speaking, but nothing I’m that concerned about. I need to learn how to make these WordPress upgrades a bit more foolproof and that starts by backing up my content prior to the upgrade. Actually it needs to be done every time I add something new. That will make everything easier down the road. Now if I can just get used to the new WordPress interface… it’s always something. I wish I could find my photos of the Mediterranean taken from the corniche above Monaco, then I might get untracked again… or not.

I’m pleased everything looks right and everything seems to function properly… so I’m

Lettin’ out the clutch, steppin’ on the gas and movin’ a bit further down the highway.

Major Hiccup

I finally gave in to the nagging message on my admin dashboard page that wanted me to upgrade to Wordpress 2.7.1. I guess I’m glad that I now have the latest, most powerful and easiest to use version of Wordpress but I lost a lot of my recent posts in the transition. The blog has been rebuilt almost from the ground up as some things have moved in a proper manner. If I can recover lost data from the database I may add a couple of posts back in. If not well sometimes you gotta break eggs to make an omelete. Hopefully I’ll have everything back and looking correct even if a lot of data was lost. I’ll just move on with the few posts I did have copies of and that I decided I liked well enough to bring forward.

Lettin’ out the clutch, steppin’ on the gas and movin’ a bit further down the highway.

Route 66 Memories From 1957

And that’s the wonderful thing about family travel:  it provides you with experiences that will remain locked forever in the scar tissue of your mind. ~Dave Barry

Just get on any major highway, and eventually it will dead-end in a Disney parking area large enough to have its own climate, populated by large nomadic families who have been trying to find their cars since the Carter administration. ~Dave Barry

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1957 Cadillac

In 1957 Disneyland was in it’s second year of operation and the Carter administration was still 19 and a half years away. The crowds at Disneyland though large were manageable and unless you were Clark Griswold with his family on vacation, finding the car at the end of the day wasn’t all that hard. Of all our many trips to California, Cadillac Vacation California Vintage 1957, has a certain boquet, a nose that lingers in the recesses of my memory. This was the vacation that we loaded the luggage into my friends mother’s 1957 Cadillac and set off in search of their visions of movie stars, gold and the myths of Southern California. The Caddy was large enough to comfortably seat the three adults, my friend, his younger brother and myself. It was The Queen Mary of the highway. They wanted to see Los Angeles… we had the experience of five previous trips to help guide them and they had the land yacht to propel us there and back in comfort. We loaded up… pointed it West and away we went.

We headed west out of Fort Worth and before we got to Mineral Wells Bobby’s mom asked, “What is that smell? It almost smells like Lilacs.” I had smelled it earlier and thought it was air freshner they used inside the car. Bobby got very quiet which was not usual for him or most any eleven year old boy. Quickly sensing his unease, she asks “Bobby what did you do? I can tell that odor is coming from you.” Bobby lowers his head and says quietly, “I used your hairspray this morning before we left.” Well I thought that was hilarious… Bobby using hairspray to keep his ducktail hairstyle in place instead of good old Wildroot hair cream. I didn’t know the best was yet to come. “But Bobby my hairspray was already packed. Where did you find the can of spray?” “It was in the bottom right hand drawer of your dresser in a purple can.” was his reply. “Bobby that was room deodorizer you used not hairspray.” At that point I lost it for about ten or fifteen minutes while Bobby turned more shades of red than I ever thought possible.

Jackrabbit Sign 1

Jackrabbit Sign

Bobby and his brother wanted to stop at every road side business to look around whether it was Howdy Hank, Jackrabbit, The Thing or a get your petrified wood from the Petrified Forest and sand from the Painted Desert tourist trap. We gave in for The Thing and they paid their money but were a bit disappointed to see a small Gila Monster in a wire cage. The miles and miles of billboard buildup for The Thing had their expectations too high. We did enjoy looking around the trading post at Jackrabbit which only cost something if you bought something.

After eating lunch at the Purple Onion in Las Vegas, Bobby being Bobby, pulled on the handles of the slot machines in the restaurant’s entry way as we left. Someone had left money in one of the slots without having pulled the handle. The machine starts whirring as Bobby pulls the handle and lo and behold he hits a jackpot. Lights are flashing, bells are ringing and Bobby is going crazy! The cashier runs around the corner to get him away from the machine since he’s a minor and it’s illegal for him to play or win. So Bobby wins a jackpot but the restaurant gets to keep it. Another of life’s lessons learned the hard way.

Our entry point to California was the border town of Needles. Needles in 1957 was a small desert town just across the Colorado River. It was full of sand, dust, scorpions, some dilapidated buildings and a lot of heat. While it wasn’t a bad town it was somewhat plain and nondescript. As we drove into Needles, Bobby says “This can’t be California! Where’s the gold, the neon and the glitter?” Yes. Where indeed was it? It could be found in the mind of an eleven year old boy making his first trip West but it only existed in the Twilight Zone. Bobby and his brother managed to shatter a lot of dreams and fantasies that summer but it was an enjoyable trip for all… one I’ll never forget.

Disneyland 1957

Disneyland 1957

Lettin’ out the clutch, steppin’ on the gas and movin’ a bit further down the highway.

Winds of the Old Days

“Ghosts of my history will follow me there
And the winds of the old days will blow through my hair
Breath on an undying ember
It doesn’t take much to remember
Those eloquent songs from the good old days
That set us to marching with banners ablaze
But reporters, there’s no sense in prying
Our blue-eyed son’s been denying
The truths that are wrapped in a mystery
The sixties are over so set him free
And take me down to the harbor now
Grapes of the summer are low on the bough
Ghosts of my history will follow me there
And the winds of the old days will blow through my hair”

~ from “Winds of the Old Days” by Joan Baez

Ever so often the winds of my old days come back to haunt me… to tease me once again of what was… to remind me how much life has changed… how much life is still the same.

Just the other day I received an email from the nephew of one of my best friends in high school… thanking me for posting my remembrance of the uncle he never met, at The Virtual Wall.

I remember warm summer days when we rode our bicycles all over the neighborhood and dreamed of what we’d do when we were grown. Once you went down the hill on Westwick gathering speed and made the turn onto Almena yelling ‘look, no brakes’. Not to be out done I did the same and wound up on the rear fender of a pickup truck half scaring the driver and myself to death. We had a good laugh about that once we realized that neither the truck nor I had been damaged. I remember winter days spent inside, building model cars and airplanes, talking of what kind of car we would get when we could drive, how we would customize our cars and of course girls. I moved from the old neighborhood, but not too far, as high school started but we remained close and as usual talked of our future. We did not know of Viet Nam then, nor how it would affect our lives. We were still innocents, relatively untouched by the world. Yet the Viet Nam war will be forever imprinted on our generation. You were the best friend a person could ever have. I believe that somehow we are still close, and somewhere our bicycles are still streaking down the hills of River Oaks. May God Bless you and your family. ~ Jim Stephens

I seem to hear from some member of his family at least once a year… a member that I have never met yet feel as if I have known them for all their lives… and I am always touched by their gratitude for my very small gesture. It’s hard to lose best friends anytime… especially in your very early twenties… you wonder what could or would have been… where life would have taken them.

Tommy had been married for a short while and had a son on the way when he was killed aboard the USS Roosevelt in the South China Sea, November of 1966. Last year I received an email from his son’s (half) sister in which she wondered what her brother thought of as he stood over the grave of the father he had never known.

During the mid-60’s the military draft was in full swing with deferments for extreme hardship, having a family (usually a large family) to care for in some instances, or working toward a college degree. Unlike today the general population of draft age males was having to support the war effort. We knew we had to do our duty. We never considered leaving the country… for us and our friends at least this was not a viable option.

Tommy had to make his choice in 1965 and after much deliberation decided the Navy was the way to go… it would be safer than the Army or the Marine Corps… plus his dad was a Navy veteran… he would do his two years and then he could get on with his life and be with his family… oh the best laid of plans. I was in college and as graduation drew closer I did my best to decide what avenue I would pursue to meet my service obligation. In 1968, I decided that the Army ROTC 2 year plan was my best choice… it proved to be a solid decision… but hindsight is 20/20.

We both made our decisions based on what we felt would be best for our future lives… we didn’t let fate or the draft make our decisions for us… we were pro-active… one is gone and the other goes on. Tommy, I still miss you… you have a wonderful family that hasn’t forgotten you… may God continue to bless you and your family… ‘till we meet again.

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Tommy Blackman and Bill Dean circa November 1959, in my backyard.

Lettin’ out the clutch, steppin’ on the gas and movin’ a bit further down the highway.

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